migraines

Well been battling migraines most of my life.  I've had them since I was 13.  Lately though they have been really bad.  I have had a migrain continually for the last 5 days.  I have had no break in that time period where I haven't had one.  They also make me extremely tired.  I only worked 4 hrs today and I came home and slept for at least 2.  I would have slept more but Shauntel woke me up cuz we had company coming over. Then when it comes time to go to bed for the night I have a hard time falling to sleep.  That is not normally my problem especially since I am border line naraleptic (sp). I have a sleeping disorder that was diagnosed about 10 years ago.  I haven't been taking any meds for it for about 6 years though, think I may have to get back on them.  Anyway I was laying down and couldn't go to sleep cuz my head hurt so I figured since I was getting up to go potty and give my self a shot I would post something real quick. 

On another note let me just say, BOY I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE REST OF MY TAXES! I'm supposed to get my federal back by Friday & I sure hope I do.

my problems as of late, a rant

Ugh!  I don't know what to do, I know I'm over weight, I want to loose it but I am having such a hard time.  I love my wife the way she is.  But she still insists she needs to loose more weight.  I don't agree, she's beautiful the way she is.  She's almost 50 & she's hot!  A lot of people tell me that.  I told her the other day that she was gorgeous and that I was repulsive to her and she said "I'm not gorgeous".  SO, yesterday I asked her why she never commented on the repulsive part.  She said "what did you want me to say"? I was like that I wasn't repulsive would have been a good start.  She said "baby you know I don't like big".  I wanted to start balling.  I said yes I know this but I was big when we met. In fact I was bigger then than I am now.  She said well "I'm working on it"  "You know I need eye candy"  I said I've never had "Eye Candy".  But that was disputed too.  I don't know what to do.  I have such a hard time.  I'm taking an anti depressant so I know I'm depressed and I don't know if that has contributed to my weight gain.  I gained 30 pounds over the last couple of months.  I mean I feel a little better depression wise but I am feeling pretty bummed lately.  The weight has a lot to do with it plus I am loosing a lot of hair and I don't know why!  I have been tested for thyroid problems, which I don't have now I'm baffled.  The other thing that I have researched is that I could be loosing my hair from a side effect of my pill.  I was supposed to go to the doctor for it last week but they canceled.  I have also recently found out that I need to have a hysterectomy.  I'm 35 years old, have never had the opportunity to have kids, plus my ex convinced me to tie my tubes when I was 29, so I couldn't get prego.  Anyway I have a small fibroid tumor and it is hereditary in my family.  My mom had her hysterectomy when she was 22 right after having my brother, I have an aunt that had one @ 29, and a cousin @ 27.  Therefore rather than just leave it since it is non cancerous I'm opting for the surgery.  I will most likely be having it the beginning of next month.  Ok I think I should stop ranting for now.  I have such a migraine right now any light hurts me and the sun is beaming in the window in front of me.

See ya for now, thanks for reading.

A little about me!

Well I haven't blogged in years and I wish I hadn't quit.  It's like my online diary.  I am happily involved in the best relationship of my life.  I bought my house Nov, of 2009.  I love all animals.  I work full time as a sales person/2nd assistant manager.  I am very good @ my job.  I love what I do, & who I'm with.  I have been w/my honey for over 3 years now and it has been the best of my life.  My brother died in Oct of 09, which was way too soon!  He was only 31.  My parents are divorced but my mom is very happily engaged.  My dad has recently moved out of town, I didn't think I would miss him as much as I do.  I miss him popping by unannounced.  I never thought I'd say that but I do!  I've recenlty turned 35 and have found out I have to have a hysterectomy.  I'm a little scared but not too much.  I'm having it done the easy way so it won't be too bad!  I already had my tubes tied years ago so it's not that big of a deal.  Well that's enough for tonight.  Thanks for reading!