my problems as of late, a rant

Ugh!  I don't know what to do, I know I'm over weight, I want to loose it but I am having such a hard time.  I love my wife the way she is.  But she still insists she needs to loose more weight.  I don't agree, she's beautiful the way she is.  She's almost 50 & she's hot!  A lot of people tell me that.  I told her the other day that she was gorgeous and that I was repulsive to her and she said "I'm not gorgeous".  SO, yesterday I asked her why she never commented on the repulsive part.  She said "what did you want me to say"? I was like that I wasn't repulsive would have been a good start.  She said "baby you know I don't like big".  I wanted to start balling.  I said yes I know this but I was big when we met. In fact I was bigger then than I am now.  She said well "I'm working on it"  "You know I need eye candy"  I said I've never had "Eye Candy".  But that was disputed too.  I don't know what to do.  I have such a hard time.  I'm taking an anti depressant so I know I'm depressed and I don't know if that has contributed to my weight gain.  I gained 30 pounds over the last couple of months.  I mean I feel a little better depression wise but I am feeling pretty bummed lately.  The weight has a lot to do with it plus I am loosing a lot of hair and I don't know why!  I have been tested for thyroid problems, which I don't have now I'm baffled.  The other thing that I have researched is that I could be loosing my hair from a side effect of my pill.  I was supposed to go to the doctor for it last week but they canceled.  I have also recently found out that I need to have a hysterectomy.  I'm 35 years old, have never had the opportunity to have kids, plus my ex convinced me to tie my tubes when I was 29, so I couldn't get prego.  Anyway I have a small fibroid tumor and it is hereditary in my family.  My mom had her hysterectomy when she was 22 right after having my brother, I have an aunt that had one @ 29, and a cousin @ 27.  Therefore rather than just leave it since it is non cancerous I'm opting for the surgery.  I will most likely be having it the beginning of next month.  Ok I think I should stop ranting for now.  I have such a migraine right now any light hurts me and the sun is beaming in the window in front of me.

See ya for now, thanks for reading.